Last night, I had a dream.
There are many explanations to it I guess but I feel that if I write it down,
I may find a deeper meaning.
So to start:
The setting: Eaton Rapids
My friend Kristi and I hear about this house where a hoarder used to live. I don't know what happened to the hoarder but I presume she died. So Kristi and I get a group of people and decide to visit this house. For some reason, Justin Long-the actor, is there with us. He warns us to stay away from the house because it's hard to get out once you get in and there are a lot of toxins. Never the less, we enter the house. Justin ends up going with us. Kristi and I venture into a room and I get cut with something. In the dream it looked like burrs, those pokey things outside that stick to everything. Well we end up trying to leave but we can't. Suddenly we find ourselves start to slowly go insane. We are all trapped in this "hell". While trapped in the house, I develop a relationship with Justin. (yes, cheesy, but deal for a second) Later in the dream, I have almost completely lost it. While in a state of sleeping, I wake to hear that Justin disappeared. I hear everyone saying that he's probly dead somewhere inside the house. When I wake up and come to a realization that he's really gone, Kristi and I attempt to find a way to escape. We finally squeeze out of some hole and start running down the street. Part of us is extremely happy. We were so glad to be finally out of that house, but we realized that everyone on the street was staring at us. They were pointing and whispering to each other. I think that I must truly be insane, to think that I look normal in the world. Eventually we get taken to the hospital. I get returned to my father who has a horrible new wife and child. They didn't get me the help I needed and as I still fight with insanity, my father's wife is completely horrible to me and only cares about the child. I would randomly start crying and freaking out. As we all go out on the town, I see Justin and run up to him. He also has been mentally damaged by our experience in the house but seems to be relatively better off then me. I am still in love with him but there seems to be a metaphorical wall between us. For awhile I try to rekindle what we had but it's just not working. Finally we break it off.
That was the end of the dream.
I think that this dream represents a lot. Some serious, some sort of funny.
First, I think the house means that I feel trapped in some way in my real life and it is affecting me mentally. Maybe that means that I'm sick of being stuck in the same trend. Maybe it means something about my relationship with my friends or family.
I believe that the hoarding aspect means that I'm sick of the clutter of my life and I feel like it's beating me down. As for Justin, Justin Long is creative, as an actor, smart, attractive and older. Pretty much all the aspects of a perfect guy in my mind. My father remarrying may have to do with the fact that my parents are in a fight right now. The mean wife may be due to the fact that I watched Cinderella before I went to sleep last night. The aftermath, my lingering insanity may have to do with how I feel like people can't relate to me very well. And the break up could be my insecurity at how I have a horrible feeling that I'll never find the one guy that I'll be with forever.
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